Week Twenty One - A Day in The Life -  Stable Air

Things seem so normal again! Paul and I are happy together, feeling the way we used to feel before we got married and just loved being with one another.

This week I got a promotion at work, with a little salary increase. I am happy because my boss told me he values my input, thinks I am sharp in grasping what needs to be done and I am good with clients. I work hard because I like what I do and also because I enjoy helping people. I feel good at the end of the day when my clients tell me I helped them a lot.

Paul also seems to be happy with his new job. Not that he talks a lot about it, but I can see it from his attitude when he comes home at the end of the day. He does not complain as he used to and he seems to be more cheerful.

Last week we celebrated our “anniversary,” four months! We have been celebrating every month, but the last couple of them have been strained and not great opportunities for celebration. This time we went out to our favorite restaurant and went to the movies. Melissa had asked us if we wanted to meet some of her friends at her house, but Paul and I wanted to be alone. We have been married for one third of the year and so many things have happened since February 14. We wanted to cherish this moment, because one never knows what can happen next…

My friend Melissa told me she is dating this guy and it looks like the two of them are going to be an item. I am happy for her, and also a little envious. I remember how it felt for Paul and I to go out on first dates, all excited, feeling butterflies in our stomachs.  Now that Paul and I are together all the time, the feelings are different. They come and go, wax and wane rather than being constantly there. I guess this is part of what happens with time. It makes me feel old, while Melissa is still young and excited about the future of her new love.

One of Paul’s sisters, Catherine, was in town visiting their parents. I like Catherine and enjoy seeing her. This time, however, she was very sad. She and Tyler, her husband of eight years, have decided to split up. I was very surprised when I first heard of it, because they seemed to be so happy together and so well suited to one another. Who knows what happened? Was another person involved? Or was just a distancing between them? Catherine seems to follow the family tradition of being tight lipped about her feelings. She just announced the decision to divorce Tyler, but avoided any questions about why they decided to go their separate ways. It scares me to think that divorces can happen so quickly and easily. The last time we saw them together was at our wedding, and they seemed to be quite happy.

But then again, I could see myself detaching from Paul in the last few weeks, to the point where I was even questioning my feelings for him. I get anxious just thinking about this. I should just enjoy what I have now, and not bother with what happened in the past or could happen in the future. As people say, live in the moment, stop and smell the roses.